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Tuesday
January 16th,
2007
10:44am
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I remember writing in this "journal", If you would call it one.
It's probably been a few months or year, that I haven't written on here, but basically alot of things have changed...and for the better.
Let's just say, Happy endings come with large baggage. But if you're up for the ride. Then ride on!
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| Autumn Fever |
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Friday
September 22nd,
2006
9:44am
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So today is a brand new day.
The first day of Autumn too.
Yesterday was a dreadful day, but today, today might just be well off for me. I became Emo-Vik. Hahaha. But now i feel so much better.
Body wise, no.
My throat is very very soar.
My nose is stuffy.
I feel stuffy. Can i get a break?!
Woke up today and got to finish my Shakespearean project. Then i played some Burnout Revenge and Halo 2. I think my account was turned into the one-year membership. soo woohoo for me!
Thanks to Rob, I am this new person. Yesterday night, while we talked, i began to understand that i can actually accomplish the things i tend to give up on. I need to give myself more credit for how far i've come. To this point, people my age haven't accomplished the things i have. And for this whole girl gamer thing, i am on top of Rob. Promise :o)
For school, I am gonna do my best, nothing will bring me down. oh at least let's hope not.
So three cheers for the new me.
Empire Arcadia is gonna blow out big. Seriously.
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Thursday
September 21st,
2006
9:46am
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AGRH!
I am so depressed right now.
Got called into the office to hear that my free 8th period class wasn't free anymore!
So much for having fun in the summer.
And here lie the consequences.
I just need to pull myself together before I break.
I decided, i am leaving early today, from school.
I can't be here all day, not today.
I don't feel good anyways. So might as well, just take off.
Planning to get started on that Shakespeare project, then play some video games, get some rest, and enjoy watching the rest of the movies I got from Netflix.
Relaxing is the key to depression. And I am punching it right on the spot.
I need an early vacation. Someone join me?
:o)
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Tuesday
September 19th,
2006
10:40am
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so i got this.
that feeling.
award for being something you can't beat.
Robby got me Guitar Hero this Sunday. I wasn't too fanatic about it. But, it was nice of him to think of me. So I played all day yesterday, since I was out sick. Let's just say, I majorly suck at that game.
MIND you, I am getting the hang of it.
I didn't get time to crash into some cars. He also got me Burnout Revenge for Xbox. My head started to hurt, so didn't get to play it at all. So much for being home sick.
We started to have this conversation, involving the Wii, which I am planning to get. Gets out November 19, right around my birthday, SCORE! It comes around $250, not bad. I do still plan to get the PS3, even though it's set to hit the stores for about $600-700...nutzo!
Oh man, I can't wait for Digital Life as well. This year it will be awesome. Attending with Empire Arcadia and Robby competing, PRICELESS.
oh oh! I am interested in this game much. All your fault Rob.
Valkyrie Profile 2
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Friday
September 15th,
2006
9:51am
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so i saw Star Wars finally.
pretty late. i am aware of that.
i did enjoy it though. i am not a fan at all.
not a fanatic one at least. but it was ok.
i either want to be a Jedi Knight or Storm Trooper.
:o)
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| Addicted :o) |
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Thursday
September 14th,
2006
10:01am
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stuck in Mous. computer class.
this is helpless.
so i found something else to be addicted on.
amazon.com
yeah, yeah, i know. but i can't help it.
i am sitting here bored out of my mind...
ten seconds later i open up the internet explorer icon.
hit browser...
POOF!!
and by the way i miss you Buster x's 546546541561587897
:o)
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| a feeling i try to hide |
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Sunday
August 6th,
2006
10:50pm
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You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?
Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me
I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?
I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I've fought
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?
Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
maybe i need that.
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| i'm trying to figure out this life |
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Saturday
August 5th,
2006
8:28pm
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so when you think you got everything in control, the least of the problems you think you have to handle....think again. no matter how unfair you might think outcomes are. they will slap you right in the face no matter what.
the worse part is that i broke down. i lost the sense of control. while i'm here, i am not myself anymore. driven by some other force. and i miss that feeling. the feeling where life felt alive. but today, today is dead. the one thing that hurts most is, i did the stupidest thing ever. but yet again, no surprise to none.
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all
so once i figured out how to keep my mind occupied. i decided to cook.
i made Spagettis with meatballs. they actually came out good. i just didn't add enough salt to the spagettis but other than that, the food was great.
oh oh oh oh
i even made myself some dessert. it's called Ice Box Cake, it's like chocolate pudding with graham cookies and whipped cream. oh man, did it taste good. actually i am eating some right now. teehee. so much for being a cook.
i forgot how much i loved trees.
But you can blame it on me
and the person you thought I wanted you to be
but don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on.
i promised. and didn't deliver. so much for being me.
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Friday
August 4th,
2006
12:36am
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so let's say i am happy again....
would you believe me?
i mean, would i believe myself.
well guess what, i am. so happy happy joy joy :)
i wondered about the past and got too caught up. worried about the future and lost myself in it. and the present, oh, do i screw up everything. but for once or maybe twice i am happy with my outcomes. i am the old me with a twist. let's just say PERFECT!
so i went to Cas' yesterday
don't ask...
so the fruits and labors of any exciting day.
oh ps.
don't you wish your girlfriend could game like me....teehee ;)
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| another happy ending... |
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Thursday
April 6th,
2006
11:54am
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Things do turn out for the better.
having trouble in the men department ;;; glad i got rid of that.
Another boy, another life
Another happy ending, and I'll be alive
Another place, another time
Another hand to touch, another sun to shine
So I was on the website, Netflix, looking for movies, when I realized, I can search for actors/actresses, so I got a bunch of orders with Clive Owen in them and now I am researching Kate Beckinsale.
So what? Yep I bought into. Star Wars. I saw the very, very first one in theaters back in the early 90's, I believe, but never was really interested in it. But the games, jeez, I do like them, so they got me interested in the movies.
Remember these?
Wallace and Gromit
Roger Rabbit
oh yeah, I got that feeling at the pit of stomach ;;; Score!
;x
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