Well Maybe I like my Edge

Quite a long time..

2007-01-16T15:47:28Z

I remember writing in this "journal", If you would call it one.

It's probably been a few months or year, that I haven't written on here, but basically alot of things have changed...and for the better.

Let's just say, Happy endings come with large baggage. But if you're up for the ride. Then ride on!

Autumn Fever

2006-09-22T14:03:30Z

So today is a brand new day.
The first day of Autumn too.

Yesterday was a dreadful day, but today, today might just be well off for me. I became Emo-Vik. Hahaha. But now i feel so much better.

Body wise, no.
My throat is very very soar.
My nose is stuffy.
I feel stuffy. Can i get a break?!

Woke up today and got to finish my Shakespearean project. Then i played some Burnout Revenge and Halo 2. I think my account was turned into the one-year membership. soo woohoo for me!

Thanks to Rob, I am this new person. Yesterday night, while we talked, i began to understand that i can actually accomplish the things i tend to give up on. I need to give myself more credit for how far i've come. To this point, people my age haven't accomplished the things i have. And for this whole girl gamer thing, i am on top of Rob. Promise :o)

For school, I am gonna do my best, nothing will bring me down. oh at least let's hope not.

So three cheers for the new me.

Empire Arcadia is gonna blow out big. Seriously.

not up to part

2006-09-21T13:58:50Z

AGRH!

I am so depressed right now.
Got called into the office to hear that my free 8th period class wasn't free anymore!

So much for having fun in the summer.
And here lie the consequences.
I just need to pull myself together before I break.

I decided, i am leaving early today, from school.
I can't be here all day, not today.
I don't feel good anyways. So might as well, just take off.
Planning to get started on that Shakespeare project, then play some video games, get some rest, and enjoy watching the rest of the movies I got from Netflix.

Relaxing is the key to depression. And I am punching it right on the spot.

I need an early vacation. Someone join me?

:o)

that feeling

2006-09-19T14:54:38Z

so i got this.
that feeling.
award for being something you can't beat.

Robby got me Guitar Hero this Sunday. I wasn't too fanatic about it. But, it was nice of him to think of me. So I played all day yesterday, since I was out sick. Let's just say, I majorly suck at that game.

MIND you, I am getting the hang of it.

I didn't get time to crash into some cars. He also got me Burnout Revenge for Xbox. My head started to hurt, so didn't get to play it at all. So much for being home sick.

We started to have this conversation, involving the Wii, which I am planning to get. Gets out November 19, right around my birthday, SCORE! It comes around $250, not bad. I do still plan to get the PS3, even though it's set to hit the stores for about $600-700...nutzo!

Oh man, I can't wait for Digital Life as well. This year it will be awesome. Attending with Empire Arcadia and Robby competing, PRICELESS.

oh oh! I am interested in this game much. All your fault Rob.
Valkyrie Profile 2

interesting

2006-09-15T13:51:44Z

so i saw Star Wars finally.

pretty late. i am aware of that.
i did enjoy it though. i am not a fan at all.
not a fanatic one at least. but it was ok.

i either want to be a Jedi Knight or Storm Trooper.

:o)

Addicted :o)

2006-09-14T14:12:37Z

stuck in Mous. computer class.

this is helpless.
so i found something else to be addicted on.
amazon.com
yeah, yeah, i know. but i can't help it.
i am sitting here bored out of my mind...
ten seconds later i open up the internet explorer icon.
hit browser...

POOF!!

and by the way i miss you Buster x's 546546541561587897

:o)

a feeling i try to hide

2006-08-07T02:52:38Z

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me

Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me

I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I've fought
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please

maybe i need that.

i'm trying to figure out this life

2006-08-06T01:19:47Z

so when you think you got everything in control, the least of the problems you think you have to handle....think again. no matter how unfair you might think outcomes are. they will slap you right in the face no matter what.

the worse part is that i broke down. i lost the sense of control. while i'm here, i am not myself anymore. driven by some other force. and i miss that feeling. the feeling where life felt alive. but today, today is dead. the one thing that hurts most is, i did the stupidest thing ever. but yet again, no surprise to none.

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

so once i figured out how to keep my mind occupied. i decided to cook.
i made Spagettis with meatballs. they actually came out good. i just didn't add enough salt to the spagettis but other than that, the food was great.

oh oh oh oh
i even made myself some dessert. it's called Ice Box Cake, it's like chocolate pudding with graham cookies and whipped cream. oh man, did it taste good. actually i am eating some right now. teehee. so much for being a cook.

i forgot how much i loved trees.

But you can blame it on me
and the person you thought I wanted you to be
but don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on.

i promised. and didn't deliver. so much for being me.

maybe i got magic

2006-08-04T04:54:33Z

so let's say i am happy again....

would you believe me?
i mean, would i believe myself.
well guess what, i am. so happy happy joy joy :)

i wondered about the past and got too caught up. worried about the future and lost myself in it. and the present, oh, do i screw up everything. but for once or maybe twice i am happy with my outcomes. i am the old me with a twist. let's just say PERFECT!

so i went to Cas' yesterday

don't ask...

so the fruits and labors of any exciting day.

oh ps.

don't you wish your girlfriend could game like me....teehee ;)

another happy ending...

2006-04-06T16:24:12Z

Things do turn out for the better.

having trouble in the men department ;;; glad i got rid of that.

Another boy, another life
Another happy ending, and I'll be alive
Another place, another time
Another hand to touch, another sun to shine

So I was on the website, Netflix, looking for movies, when I realized, I can search for actors/actresses, so I got a bunch of orders with Clive Owen in them and now I am researching Kate Beckinsale.

So what? Yep I bought into. Star Wars. I saw the very, very first one in theaters back in the early 90's, I believe, but never was really interested in it. But the games, jeez, I do like them, so they got me interested in the movies.

Remember these?

Wallace and Gromit

Roger Rabbit

oh yeah, I got that feeling at the pit of stomach ;;; Score!

;x

jeez

2006-03-30T17:25:25Z

too tired to talk.

too tired to walk.

too tired to even stand up.

jeez. the stressfulness of school.

imagine if i still had a job.

let's hope Virgin Megastore hires me though. and of course Amanda.

i miss him. jeez. crazy.

and look how cool http://www.bigapplecon.com/ ((Copy and paste it to your url) if you live in the city that is, or want to admire it, haha. i really want to go. because i miss Comic Con.

can't take my eyes off you

2006-03-16T13:25:35Z

ok, so maybe i am moving too fast.

jeez.

give the girl a break. she's only loved about, let's say, 25115225410 times in her life.

teehee.

O.o

anyone see Match Point? well i did when it came out. can't wait for the dvd to come out. yay.

hopefully my netflix movies come today.

woop!

much love ♥♥♥♥♥

Vik

an quiet obession

2006-03-14T13:25:07Z

i've got those butterfly things. yep those.

my bed smells like french vanilla and him.
my shirt smells like kiwi melon and him.

i just love him.

“I hope she’ll be a fool—that’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool.”

oh yet another scary obession. this time, Clive Owen takes it all.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I'm confused.

2006-02-08T17:26:39Z

I feel myself questioning it.

Am I suppose to?

I am know that certain things won't be alright, that things won't change.

I begin to blame myself. But it is you.
The worst part that hurts is that I paid more attention to you, then to my own dog.
That hurts.

I've been called a bad friend.
People just don't get it. I don't do it on purpose. I don't ignore you because I want too. Maybe if you thought about, maybe I'm dealing with things. Things a little more important.

There is school.
Family.
Drama.

Just give me a week or so, I will promise to call you all.

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

Remember I love you.

So much for being busy.

I'm happy.

2006-02-07T17:21:06Z

I, I’m driving black on black
Just got my license back
I got this feeling in my veins
this train is coming off the track
I’ll ask polite if the devil needs a ride
Because the angel on my right
ain’t hanging out with me tonight
I’m driving past your house
while you were sneaking out
I got the car door opened up
so you can jump in on the run
Your mom don’t know
that you were missing
She’d be pissed if she could see
the parts of you that I’ve been kissing
Screamin’

You’re beside me on the seat
Got your hand between my knees
And you control how fast we go
by just how hard you wanna squeeze
It’s hard to steer
when you’re breathing in my ear
But I got both hands on the wheel
while you got both hands on my gears
By now, no doubt that we were heading south
I guess nobody ever taught her
not to speak with a full mouth
‘Cause this was it, like flicking on a switch
It felt so good I almost drove into the ditch
I’m screamin’

We were parked out by the tracks
We’re sitting in the back
And we just started getting busy
When she whispered “what was that?”
The wind, I think ‘cause no one else knows
where we are
And that was when she started screamin’
“That’s my dad outside the car!”
Oh please, the keys, they’re not in the ignition
Must have wound up on the floor while
we were switching our positions
I guess they knew that she was missing
As I tried to tell her dad
it was her mouth that I was kissing
Screamin’

You're pathetic..

2006-02-06T03:46:07Z

I don't need this right now.

As much as I hate what I am about to say, it's all true.

I miss you.
I care for you.

I really honestly wish you were here for me. But you are not. And I'll have to live with that.

So much for caring.

I have that speeding thing

2006-02-03T18:57:35Z

The car.

The girl.

All equals to something interesting.

Pathetic

2006-02-01T00:57:37Z

I bounced back.

I knew I would.

Life is much better without you in a sense. I feel more comfortable.

Old me is back.

Woah.

2006-01-28T06:05:45Z

Certain things I can't just stand!

But a day in a museum, that just tops it.

Thursday ;;; awesome!

Friday ;;;; great!

Post pictures of the museum later...too tired.

Laugh a little

2006-01-25T04:11:24Z

Oh so you think you know me?

Guess again.

Maybe so.

Again not making sense, oh do I ever in these entries.

Tomorrow last day of exams! Thursday and Friday off.

The new members of the family won't let me sleep at night. They keep moving in the cage and making noises.

Aw. but I still love them.

Gosh, I love him!

2006-01-24T03:15:55Z

I am so stupid.

I can't seem to keep my mouth shut. It keeps getting me in trouble.

We did resumes in business class. I thought I finished it, but guess again, nope. So I edited some things and now I am very confident about it. So I hope I get an internship this summer somewhere were I can really enjoy it.

After that I went with C.J to eat at Taco Bell and then got home.

Two regents tomorrow.

Sucks.

Meet Moxie.

My new pet.

Words can't describe nights like these...

2006-01-22T02:50:16Z

Okay...where do I begin?

Friday ;;; I met Luis, finally.

Well, Vicky and I went downtown and hanged out. It was so much fun. We ate a restaurant called Stage Door, I didn't even get to finish my food. I was way too full. But the lemonade made me feel better.

Entertainment in New York City Subways...YAY!

A guy looking nice in a dress...his shirt says "My Autograph is worth millions". I bet.

We saw Underworld 2.

A MUST SEE MOVIE!

Then we came home and I went to my sister's party in her house. We drank until 3 am, we had shots, a drink called Malibu.

I was too drunk to even function and getting home was a bitch.

Today, I met up with Cassandra and we went to her screening of a mimi film she did. Then we went to her house and danced to some music. Haha. I think the Wendy's meal we had got to our brain.

The screening "party" was a bit fun.

What a day eh?

Meet Darth Tater...aka Mr. Potato Head.

Bleh.....

2006-01-19T03:02:03Z

There'll be times
When my crimes
Will seem almost unforgivable
I give in to sin
Because you have to make this life livable
But when you think I've had enough
From your sea of love
I'll take more than another riverful
And I'll make it all worthwhile
I'll make your heart smile

Strangelove
Strange highs and strange lows
Strangelove
That's how my love goes
Strangelove
Will you give it to me
Will you take the pain
I will give to you
Again and again
And will you return it

There'll be days
When I stray
I may appear to be
Constantly out of reach
I give in to sin
Because I like to practice what I preach
I'm not trying to say
I'll have it all my way
I'm always willing to learn
When you've got something to teach
And I'll make it all worthwhile
I'll make your heart smile

Pain will you return it
I'll say it again - pain
Pain will you return it
I won't say it again

I give in
Again and again
I give in
Will you give it to be
I give in
I'll say it again
I give in

I give in
Again and again
I give in
That's how my love goes
I give in
I'll say it again
I give in

This song, It just fits right in.

Much ♥

She's that type of girl

2006-01-13T16:48:33Z

So he says my hair is pretty.

What do I say?

JUSTIN: "Vicky's hair has always been pretty. She has those multi-colored strands"
ME: "Haha"

So yeah.

o.O

Saw Eric yesterday. Ignored. Nope I did the ignoring.

Got a date.

Luis and myself made a deal.

I let him take me on a date to the movies, then he will promise to take me to the best Sushi bar in New York. Never tired sushi.

He loves it. I hope I do too.

The highlights of my days are numbered. Friday through Monday I am busy. Ha. What a life eh?

Movies tonight. Date Tomorrow. Sunday work. Monday P.C Richards shopping.

So I've been addicted to this band.

Socratic

She's the type of girl that everybody talks about.
In a type of world that no one really talks about.
But everybody talks about what no one really talks about.

Plus I look pretty today. Comments on the hair for the most part.

Oh yeah. Eileen loves my make-up, whatever that means?

Haha.

Much ♥

Homeroom

2006-01-09T13:22:13Z

Morning homeroom.

Computer lab.

Status: Very damn tired.

Function: Sleepy.

Much ♥